Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Subtraction saved my life this year in addition to that I live to tell my story.

Open your eyes…. A little bit more…… good….
Now turn your head to the left…….. That’s it!
I stand there in between flashes
Knowing no picture could ever capture my real feelings
I have yet to capture them myself.
Ellen keeps telling me it’s best to walk away
So I walk away because I trust her judgment.
I just don’t trust my foot steps.

Direction is everything.

I never felt more confident than I did that day on South Street
My face bared the biggest smile ever
My good bye strong and my decision permanent
Not like hair dye
More like ….. I’ll die if I don’t listen to my heart.
U-shin should have been there to capture that
Instead he captured this.



Does this picture tell the story of someone who’s spent the last 8 years of her life following everything except her dreams and her heart… does it?

Im not concerned with how people feel when they look at me
I’m more concerned with how I feel when I look at myself.
Life aint fair …. And im not asking that it be,
Besides im so use to things being this way
A change might fuck up my equilibrium.
As if I have one.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

THE NAKED TRUTH


I STAND BARE BEFORE YOU
WITH A BEER IN MY HAND AND
A PIECE OF CORNBREAD
WRAP IN ALUMINUM FOIL.
CRYING AND LAUGHING
AT THE SAME TIME.

PLEASE
DON’T
LOOK AT ME I WISPER
FULLY EXPOSED.
STANDING ON TOP OF A PILE OF MY CLOTHES
IN A POSE
THAT SHOWS MY SHAME

YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW MY NAME.

YOU CALL ME DARLING
IN YOUR BRAIN IM JUST
A SWEET HUMBLE GIRL FROM HARLEM
IT'S INSAIN.

MAKES ME WONDER WHAT WE’RE REALLY HERE TO OBTAIN
IS IT LOVE OR IS IT PAIN.